Recovery

There is a really disturbing trend happening in my life... I'm thinking that it has a lot to do with Thursday night debauchery with Dan. It was loads of fun and trouble last night. Jo, Lou and Kerri were out with us too. Kerri pulled this girl she was eyeing. She was so excited. I'll keep the rest of the nights follies for another day... Went to G A Y after the CB and danced a wee bit. Kept thinking how much Sean would have loved the place... lots of half naked boys writhering about...

Spoke with Sean during the day yesterday. He rang me on my mobile. It was so nice to hear his voice. The only person from back home that I've spoken with real time since I've been here besides my mum. Nothing could ever replace the voice to voice conversation. Text messaging and e-mail are grand... but the phone is still really great... little things that you think about when you're away from your regular support network of friends.

Work was hazy and painful. Rightly so quite frankly. Mind you it's now 17h20 so there is not long to go before I head home. The crew here are going out for drinks after work. I don't know if I could stomach it! What the hell...

I'm not sure if it was the nausea or from my hangover but I sure had some massive twangs of wooziness. I was thinking about my mum arriving, anxiety of her flying etc. I know it's silly, but you just never know. We've had such a strange relationship over the past few years... I feel bad for her hoping that I'll start dating boys again seeing as I've moved somewhere new... That will all be crushed when she meets my roommate who is clearly gay. Ah well, I can't protect her forever, I've resolved not to discuss this part of my life with her, but I can't worry myself sick trying to shelter her any more than I already do. I just love her to bits, too bad really that we can't see eye to eye on this issue.

Got a letter from Yvonne today, she's just back from her trip to Nepal. She's off to start her job in NYC in a week, big change of pace from trekking in Nepal. I'm going to sign off here for now, I must write her back before I leave for the weekend.